Oh my, I didn’t realize it’s been over a month since I posted something. That makes sense though because it’s been right at a month that I’ve had a boyfriend. I’ve never wanted to be one of those girls that gets involved in a new relationship and then all her friendships fade and become a distant memory – simply because I’ve always been on the friend end of that scenario. I just decided a long time ago that should I ever be in a relationship that I wouldn’t let my friendships suffer. I’m realizing now that’s easier said than done.
First, let me say it’s not the boyfriend’s fault. He’s really wonderful and understanding, so if I say I want to hang out with the girls, he could care less. My problem is that I’d rather be spending time with him – most of the time. I’m just trying to find a balance with juggling work, school, church, family, friends, and the boyfriend (which is where most of my time is allotted). My house has become very messy. I’m not as organized as I once was or as I like to be. When stuff (such as my school work or my home) is unorganized, I become stressed.
I’m finding that I’m tired and there’s never enough hours in the day to keep up with everything. I just need a day off to step back and get myself together. There’s never a day off though. Even when I’m not working, I have church events, cleaning, and hanging out with the boyfriend. Last night though, we discussed the need for ‘me’ time – for each of us. We just got all wrapped up in the excitement of each other and have now realized that yeah, we still need our space at times. It’s not that we even get on each others nerves, but one can get lost in a relationship or somehow lose their identity in that other person if they’re not careful. I’ve been that person in the past and won’t do it again.
So anyway, now that life is catching up to me, I’m realizing that it never stops and really won’t even slow down for me. That stinks.
